Not sure if I’ve told anyone, but am seeing a counsellor cause its all getting  a bit too much for little me!  Kept waking up in the morning with the though ‘what is the point of waking up to more arguments’.  At the insistence of Giraffe and Domino, I finally succumbed and decided to go speak to someone about the whole thing.Anyway, Diana (the counsellor) has told me that I must make a decision, otherwise I will drive myself insane!

So, obviously I made the decision (lucky I bought myself an apartment in the city – at least I have somewhere to go!)…and I will advise the parents of the decision in due course (i.e. when dad gets back!)Apart from that, can’t complain.  Got most of the stuff I need for my apartment.  Bed is about 6 wks away, but that’s cool cause it will be just after I get back from Singapore/Malaysia!Brother said that he will wall mount the LCD TV and speakers into my place, saving some space!

Other than that – nothing new!

Welcome back Ruben! (p.s. you are right – decisions suck and hindsight would be a wonderful thing!)

very heated discussion with mum on monday night, but im sticking to my guns!  either i marry Giraffe or i don’t get married…she cried, i got teary, but what can i do?  there is no way i can have an arranged marriage.  honestly, how can you marry one person when you’re in love with another!! 

 last night went to Hyde Park for some food festival…atmosphere was awesome, so many people out and about.  had yummy dutch pancakes with syrup, choc fudge and icing sugar…yummmm!!

Giraffe and i have assignments due next week   so will be doing that on saturday.  luckily its going to be in the 30′s which means i wont wanna be outside.  will be going to Nick’s for a seafood platter and possible Chinta Ria as well!

 hopefully i find out today if i get to stay here a little while longer!

During the long weekend I had two of my friends stay with me…one I have known since I was 5 or 6 (Trackie), the other highschool (Hippy).  Hippy asked if her friend could stay over..i said fine..had no issue with that. 

He, Andrew, wanted to come for a gay and lesbian rave that was on Saturday night cause Sleaze Fest.  He only got home about 9am on Sunday morning after going to Sleaze fest, my two other friends went out, checking out the sites, and I was sitting on my sofa bed doing my assignent, he jumps on my bed and tells me what he’s been up to…too much detail!!  Half an hour later, he tells me that he is off to have random sex with someone he met online, cause apparently that’s what you’re supposed to do after this event! 

He come home after a couple of hours and jumps straight into my bed – GROSS! The least he could have done was have a shower..he also gave me an indepth description of how things happen and I was disgusted!  I don’t care if he is gay or not!  None of my hetrosexual friends would have talked like that!!  After he left, I washed all my sheets twice and put them in the dryer for ages…hoping that heat treatement would kill whatever germs were on it!! YUCK!

On top of that, on Monday he went out with his friends, which was great cause I got to spend the day with Trackie and Hippy, which is what I really wanted to do! Girl time, catching up on the last few months cause they had been o/seas (Europe)!At about 4-ish he buzzes my apartment, sticking his tounge out at the camera…I let him up…open the door and there are like 5 people outside!!  And he’s like “do you mind if my friends come in” and before I can answer, they are already in!! I was fuming at this point!

And to make things worse I had my Chanel, Gucci, Bvlgari and LV jewellry/bags out, cause I was showing the girls and the boys just kept touching all the stuff.  Was so pissed off, especially since I don’t even let Giraffe get his grubby hands on them!!Then one guy was sitting on the floor, and Andrew went and sat between his legs and they were fooling around! ON MY FLOOR! 

At that point I was feeling uncomfortable in my own home and I rang Giraffe and was complainging to him.  He told me to kick them out – but how could I do that?  I didn’t want to upset Hippy (cause Andrew is her friend)!! So had to put up with it for 2 hrs!!  Was so relieved when they left!!! 

Never again am I letting friends of friends stay at my place! Lesson learnt!

Anyway, was talking to Cheazels about Veronica Mars last night, and I tired sooo hard not to watch tv and just do my superannuation assignment! Didn’t happen..ended up watching 3 episodes back to back, and barely doing any of my assignment! Then went to bed and read Daddy’s Girls (Tasmina Perry), definitely not the best book I have ever read, preferred Marion Hume’s ‘The Fashion Pack’

Talked to the Giraffe for a while, but he had his basketball game..which they won, so he was in a extra good mood..ended up falling asleep on the phone while I was talking to him! He’s off fishing (gross) this w/end with his dad!

Looking forward to the w/end…have friends coming up for the long weekend…not sure what they want to do though. One of they guys is gay, so he wants to go to some party called ‘Sleaze Fest’, but don’t think I’m up for it! Would prefer a quiet w/end! These are the kinda friends that enjoy catching buses and trains (yuck!) and are very adventurous! They want to go to markets and walks n all that jazz. I do not walk…especially not long distances in my heels! And catch buses/trains?? Uhuh, not going to happen…I don’t even know my way around this town and I wouldn’t be happy if we got lost!

I’ve only got 4 weeks left on my secondment, and then I have to go back HOME!! Must look at moving out…don’t think I could handle living with the parentals again. Although, there hasn’t been a huge fight in about a month. I think the only reason for that is cause the marriage topic hasn’t come up…but I know it wont be far away!!

Had so much fun catching up with all my uni friends, drinking and dancing!  Ceremony was beautiful, bride was crying as she walked down the isle on her daddy’s arm.  Her dress was amazing, she looked like a barbie doll – stunning!  I sooo wanna get married!!!

There are some people that I have no respect for, and two of those (lets call them Loser & Goose) where there! A long time ago Goose (a male) & I were best friends…we used to do everything together, spend most hours of the day with each other, watching movies, chatting etc – but I was never attracted him, we were just friends (apart from one day where he said he might have feeling for me, but that was squashed asap), and there was no way I could consider him to be more than a friend – he is way too short!!  I like my men tall.  For most of our relationship, either one or both of us was involved with another person. 

Anyway, one day Goose told me that he had a crush on Loser, and I was so happy for him (stupid me!) and I did as much as I could to help him get her, which he finally did.  Might also add that Goose, L oser and I have a fair few mutual friends.

For some reason Loser didn’t like me, although she pretended, for a good 6 mths or so that she did.  From what I hearf from the other girls, she is very insecure about her relationship with Goose (even though they are engaged now).  She requested that Goose no longer speak to me and also told the other girls that she didn’t want me invited to group things..totally immature, but whatever.  The girls told her where to go and that they wouldn’t choose sides.

Goose, obviously, took her side on all this and no longer speaks to me, not that I care very much…but disappointed in him nonetheless considering that we had what I thought to be a strong friendship…obviously I was wrong!

So they were there on Saturday…most everyone else knew Giraffe, and I introduced him to those that didn’t.  Most people like to talk to him cause they want to know how tall he is, it fascinates a fair few people.  But I didn’t intro him to Goose & Loser (simply cause I don’t really have anything to do with them anymore), but I heard Loser bitching about the fact that I was rude and hadn’t introduced Giraffe to them – like WTF?!  We barely speak and she expects me to introduce him to them…why they hell would I do that!?

I think they only reason they wanted to meet him is cause we were all in a group chatting and laughing and Goose & Loser must have felt excluded – now that is definitely not my fault!  Annoying people.

Born in Sri-Lanka, came to Australia when I was 4 and have lived here ever since!  Life has generally been pretty straight forward, went to school, then university and have amazing friends who are the reason I don’t go insane.

The last 14 months or so haven’t been that straight forward, since I got myself a boyfriend (a.k.a. Giraffe cause he is 6’10 – I should also explain than I’m about 5’3 on a good day!).

I’ve had boyfriends before, nice guys I guess (except for the one that cheated on me, but hey after 3 years, we are friends again).  Anyway…Giraffe is great, can’t complain about him, he is everything that I have ever wanted in a guy, totally in love with him.  He cooks, takes care of me, gives me amazing back massages and foot rubs (cause I get tried walking in high heels all the time), buys me amazing gifts (that includes Bvlgari and Ferre!), he is smart and all that other good stuff!  Actually, the only thing that I can complain about is the fact that he might be a tiny bit too tall…

So where does the problem lie?  He is Australian, which is no problem for me, but for my parents, it is probably the worst thing I could have ever done!  Talk about dramas at home!  They expect me to marry a Singhalese guy..and no offence to all the Lankan guys out there, but I’m not attracted to any of them. 

Basically they have said to me, either marry a sri-lankan guy or they will disown me…what a load of CRAP!  They are trying to do the whole arranged marriage thing, and I’d be ok with that (I think I would), if I wasn’t in love with Giraffe.  They just can’t see beyond the colour of his skin.  I hate to say it, but my parents are racist! 

They actually don’t even know that im going out with him (well I don’t think they do).  As far as I know, they only think that I really like him and want to marry him.  And oh my gosh, so many tears and massive fights!  My mother has threatened to kill herself over this, she keeps telling me that I am ruining the family and that I’m making my parent sick cause of all the stress etc.  Apparently I am the worst daughter on the planet cause I am not marrying the person that they want me to marry!

So the question is, what do I do?  Do I stay with Giraffe, or give him up to make my parents happy?  Actually, its not a question I can answer – I want both, my parents and Giraffe!  Arghhh!!!  ISSUES!